When you suffer with alcoholism you can wake up in the morning in the most devastating depressive emotional state, not to mention your overall ill physical feeling from the ongoing beating your body is taking from the seemingly never ending drinking. You think to yourself “I just can’t take drinking anymore and I can’t take another day like this”. And you suffer too because you feel so alone, as if you are the only person in the world going through this personal hell.
The bleak, hopeless outlook makes you think that alcohol has cost you too much in your life and there is just no point in trying to make things better. You’ve lost too much and improving your life seems impossible. You start to believe you will never feel good again, and you feel like you have failed everyone, including yourself. You wonder if you will ever feel good about anything again.
Ironically, these are the very thoughts that send you straight to your first drink of the day. What other option do you have to take the edge off and to ease the suffering?
First, be aware that you are never alone in this. There are literally hundreds of thousands if not millions of people all over the world who are going through exactly what you are going through day by day. It’s the same drill, with slight variations of course, for everyone who is drinking in quantity every day.
You lose track of time and you stop caring about the things you used to care about because alcohol has a way of taking away our ability to address the important things we need take care of in our lives. And it is the alcohol. It’s taken you from the person you once were and changed you because as no one has to tell you, alcohol is very powerful.
When you are in this futile state of mind, know that as difficult as it is, all you have to do is take the first small step toward making the effort to get off of the alcohol train. It will seem overwhelming, but just take the first step and then the second, and take it slowly. Whether you believe it or not, there is hope for you (there always has been) you just need to take a small action in the right direction. You can be the person you were before and you can repair the damage alcohol has caused in your life over time.
Even if you don’t believe you are worth saving or that things simply have gone too far, put your feelings aside (remember some of your feelings and thoughts are alcohol induced therefore not accurate) take that leap of faith and give getting some help for your drinking a shot. You don’t even have to believe it will work or the outcome will be more than you could have hoped for. What you will find that if you do seek help and follow the requirements even fairly consistently, is you will suddenly have good things to look forward to, and you will find that the good things will happen for you that you never believed were possible.
- Alex M.